Once again I have kept all few of you waiting, and yet have nothing to bring to the table once again.
I often tell people that the cleanliness of my work and/or living space is a pretty accurate picture of the order of my life. Right now, my desk is cluttered with useless crap and the front of my tiny apartment is in disarray from a week ago Sunday. However, I can now see my bedroom floor. This is an improvement, if nothing else.
My level of security & self-esteem can be described as waning and inconsistent at best. In laymens' terms, I feel bogged down by sin and most of the time lonely, even though there are several people in my life who "claim" me and a God who promises to fill any voids. Usually I'd go spend money on myself when I feel like this, but that's not something I have much of. Although I purchased a Boss TU-2 chromatic guitar pedal tuner for a good price, it's hard to allow myself not to feel guilty about it.
You'd think in these times that I'd devote more time to working on music, reading, cleaning, or practicing spiritual disciplines. I search endlessly for inspiration, yet I remain lacking.
As always, if I chose to get to the heart of the issue, I'd discover it's probably my own damn fault.
3 comments:
You're a good man Tim. Hope we cross paths again soon.
haha - you're crazy. i hope i can find some good 'inner city' stories to post just to freak you out!
i don't make new posts very often...i don't usually feel like i have much to say either.
i like your ending to this, though.
and in response to your comment on my page: i could tell you that i always want to put just the right thing down if i'm going to say something, so my waiting for the right words eventually turns into not writing anything at all...or i could just tell you to stay the hell out of my business
love you tim
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